Dear Everybody

Thank you all so much for your lovely, supportive and caring comments on my last journal. I was in a very dark place (my family were away, depressed, alone, RL friends offline etc) and you helped get me out of that place, and I love you all so much for that.

Soon after I posted that journal, I called my aunt and had a long talk about my university work. I have emailed my tutor to see if I can get an extension, am seeing the doctor today about my depression and my parents are aware of my depression now. I'm still not 100% but I think I'm going to get there.

You are all so wonderful, and the best friends anyone could ever ask for. I might not like everything Deviantart has become, but my Goodness am I ever glad I ever met you all. Over the years you have all helped me grow in confidence, in who I am and let me have fun in a way I couldn't offline, with my imagination and art. You are my extended family and I think about you all every day.

As I am awful at responding to comments;

, thank you, I have taken your sweet advice and am getting help, thank you for being there when I needed you.

I would miss you if I left, I love your quirky humour and your art! *huggles back*

, Heather, you are the best, and I mean BEST friend and adopted big sister anyone could ever ask for and I love you so much. Thank you, thank you so much for always being there for me and thinking of me and messaging me and helping me get back up and busy when I'm down and lazy. You are one of the coolest people in the universe and I am truelly blessed to have met you. love you so much!

Thank you, it's so good to have the perspective of someone older, who can reassure that things do get better. Things can sometimes feel so intense! Thank you for being there

You are one of my oldest, and most closest of online friends and I love talking to you. Thank you so much, your comment was one of the most moving to me because it reminded me of our years together. I love you so much man, you don't even know (and if we met I'd act like some awkward creepy... dork so hah, yeah). Thank you for helping me so much, I'm always so happy to see you happy and I'm often mainly sticking around to see your gorgeous art and journals that often make me laugh (unless they're serious of course). Thank you so much, love you!

, When I get my ability to write without sounding like a dork I would love to message you. Lack of empathy is a difficult thing and kind of somethign a lot of people don't get (my art therapy teacher: "you cannot learn empathy, it comes naturally", I wanted to counter "actually, you can, but it just takes a long, long time and often involves a lot of compromise" but I dodn't think she'd understand!) I hope you are doing alright. Much love, and hope to speak soon Thank you so much.

, My dear, you are the sweetest little'un I ever did meet (haha, I know you're 16 and not little, don't worry!). It wasn't your request that was weighing me down. It's still on my list of 'things to do in a few months when university is over'. Plus, I asked for people to make requests, I wanted to give some stuff back to my friends as I was so inactive at the time. Unfortunately I just asked at a point I didn't have any time! Haha, my own fault, I was overestimating my ability to multi-task. Thank you for caring about me and supporting me, you are a true friend and I appreciate it so much. (Don't take the future as me, all of my friends are having a great time compared to when we were 16!). Love you.

Thank you all again, so much. I cannot stress how much you all saved me that day, on the 11th and 12th of April. You brought me back from one of the darkest places I have ever been and for that you are heroes. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!

Some things that make me feel awesome;

1000awesomethings.com/the-top-… - The Top 1000 Things in life, a blog which has reminded me of all the things I love in life.

www.postsecret.com/ - PostSecret, reminds us all that we are human and it's nice to see my secrets are shared by others.

anxietycat.tumblr.com/ - Anxiety Cat Meme, cringeworthily true as well as hilarious!

www.youtube.com/watch?feature=… - Funny Laughing-Yoga video. Slightly creepy but he's just so happy

www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqiLfh… - Dick Figures (no, not porn, well... adult humour cartoon on youtube?) Stupid and yet funny...

More shall be added to me feel-good list!